aye aye aye..
busy with vday/orientation stuff these few days =X
having co orientation tmr after sch.
so... yep im left with only one day to buy the gifts :OOO
im so dead. lol
was expecting alot or at least quite a number of juniors for this year..
but in the end, only like one can make it -.-
(excluding the two appeal guys)
rawwwr.
D:
okay, so tennis have like 100+ who signed up, but they're only choosing 20.
so 80+ ppl got rejected :O
guitar have 100+
band have 50/60+
choir have 30+
co have 30+
wow.
._.
the two performing arts cca that is in need of the most people ended up with the least people signing up.
-.-
haiii D:

srsly, im sorta worried for this yr syf.
i think quite a number of ppl still have the mindset of like,
"oh~ its only feb. still early luh."
>_>
hellooooo.
feb, mar, apr, may.
theres like only 10 weeks before the actual thing.
;O
each week have like 2 or 3 practices?
PLUS,
only like 1/5 of the people are MAYBE practicing by themselves at home or whatsoever.
oh yay, and we MUST get GOLD.
given the fact that we have like 7 instructors teaching us
lots of $$ spent by the sch.
and most importantly,
our dear ms helen choo is expecting BETTER results since we dont have any instructors for the past two years and we got silver.
how nice.

i just dont get why some are just so not anxious.
abit frustating ._.
perhaps its because that they've never experience something before,
so i dont really blame them.
but its just that i cant stand people complaining that the practices are long and tiring blah blah blah and that studies are SOOOOO fucking important that your MIGHTY brain can only STUDY and doing something else will rot your brains out or something.
Please luh, other ccas are having like 3 or 4 practices a week ALREADY.
and our practices are only gonna increase in a month or so.
if you dont want to practise until SO LATE or LONG HOURS,
then shouldn't you START TRYING to improve your own skills.
its for your own good in the end, like seriously.
the teachers arent gonna be the ones on stage,
its you.
when you make a mistake on stage,
you know it yourself and your confidence WILL be affected somehow,
and you'll start making even MORE mistakes.
everyone will be looking at you.
you reap what you sow, isnt it?
i sound like some freak. lawl.

but somehow,
i sincerely believe that EVEN those with background or whatsoever NEED practices.
perhaps with the background,
it may benefit one when they are learning,
so that it'll be easier and they can catch things faster.
but without constant practice,
whats the fucking point even if you know the stuff.
when you go up the stage, almost like 40% of the usual stuff you've practiced is confirmed gone due to stage fright or unfamiliar-ness with the environment.

when you know that you dont have any music background or whatsoever,
isnt it like all the more you SHOULD practise?
if you have what it takes with lesser practices,
and be at least 90% sure of what is happening throughout everything,
you'll be relieved yourself and not add MORE problems in the already-so-many-problems-situation.
einstein didnt complain about trying over and over again,
so why should someone who is having not-so-good qualities as compared to him complain about trying again and again?
try asking yourself if you even have the right to complain when you yourself is part of the problem and that you're not doing anything to solve it.

im venting alot today. lol
its just that some times i see some particular people that are oh-so-concerned about their own study stuff and keep nagging without even thinking that most of us are ALSO having the same worries and problems about studies and hw blah blah blah.
you do your stuff right and you have the right to nag.
isnt it?
its like abit selfish when you're only thinking about yourself,
and not trying to make things better without putting in more effort.
and at the end of the day,
you'll be cursing at the pathetic outcome
or whats worse is that both sides dont work out well.
so that one stone injured two birds instead of killing them and accomplishing the task. hur.
whatever. i think some things ive said dont make any sense lol.

hmm, i need to brush up on my skills too.
LOL.
-.-
D: i miss my old bass in CCHMS.
the sound of this bass sucks -.-
its like all kept inside. O.o sounds weird LOL.
whatever, more practices YAY? D;
im tiredddd.

OH YA,
and watched this jap show called メイちゃんの執事 aka Mei-chan no Shitsuji aka 我的帅管家.
ITS SO FREAKING NICE.
LOL.
the show is about this school for the uber rich daughters in those families,
and the school fee is about 1billion yen everyday. wtf? LOL.
plus they need to have this male housekeeper to serve them wherever and whenever in school.
during lesson, the teacher will be like "please turn to page 57"
and the male housekeeper are the ones that is flipping the textbooks whereas the girls just sit in their comfy sofa. LOL. WTH?


OMG.he's cuuuuuuuute. ;3


oh here's the male lead of this story.
uhhhhh, okay luh. lol not as cute as the one above, Takeru Sato.
=D
he's the nan-xue-zhang in hanazakari no kimitachi e (jap version)
._.
LALALA~
okay im off to bed. LOL.
im sleeeeeeeeepy.
D: