YAY. im addicted to CabalChronicle le. (p.server for Cabal)
LOOOL.
=D
and i wannnna watch korean hana yori dango ;OO
i miss my hyun joong T_T
nights ppl.
OH YA.
HAPPY LUNAR CHINESE NEW YEAR <3
GET LOTSA LOTSA $$ WHEN MAHJONG-ING/DAIDEE-ING/BLACKJACK-ING/ETC-ING K
hahahahaha =DD

MUAHAHA.
my lappy is back.
:333
and i can watch my boys over flower again. ;DDDDD
KIM HYUN JOONG IS FREAKING SHUAI.
XD XD





CUTE RIGHT.
YOU TELL ME HE WHERE NOT CUTE.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i want to watch 大喜事 D:
the song is freaking nicee.
the plot like veh nice alsoooooooooooooo T_T

我們的愛 - 陳孟奇／姚惠敏
曲︰陳孟奇
詞︰吳慶康

女︰手交給你 一生交給你
在你眼裡 看見我自己
直到白頭 誰都不會離棄
永恆看得見 幸福在心底

男︰牽你手心 相伴一世紀
我會永遠 承諾保護你
直到我們 連皺紋都老去
也會讓你開心不哭泣

男︰我們的愛 沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛 今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

男︰我們的愛 心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰手交給你 一生交給你
在你眼裡 看見我自己
直到白頭 誰都不會離棄
也會讓你開心不哭泣

＊合︰我們的愛 沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛 今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

＃合︰我們的愛 心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰讓我看仔細
男︰永遠不要忘記
合︰所有 好心情 壞脾氣
苦與樂 都珍惜

重唱 ＊,＃

合︰AVE MARIA

oh yay.
school's so busy and tiring. D:
this is gonna be my schedule for these few weeks.
Monday: CO practice starting soon till 06 May
Tuesday: Performance rehearsal from 5pm onwards
Wednesday: CO practice till 9pm
Thursday: Performance rehearsal from 5pm onwards
Friday: CO practice starting soon too.
im so.... dead? thats when school starts. >_>
and i just found out that school officially starts on 2 Feb.
-.-
i thought it was 14 Feb D:
oh ya, thats valentines day too ._.
whatever, im looking forward to the orientation camp for the J1s actually.
LOL.
cause apparantly its gonna be a overnight camp or something.
wheeeeeeeeeee :3
i love overnight camps.
especially in tpjc, cause its not scary at all
-.-

decided to drop my H2 Economics.
so my new subject combination would be:
H2 Mathematics
H2 Chinese Language and Literature
H2 China Studies in English
H1 General Studies in Chinese
hurhur. i dont even know if the school offer this.
D:
but i reallllllly dont feeel like taking up econs again.
since im gonna go into NTU's faculty of communication and information
or something like that >_> (ie. mass communication. but abit chimmer. lol.)
so lets hope that theres a combination like mine.
SO CHEEEEEEEEEEEEENA.
but whatever, i like em ._.

i miss my laptop.
=[

so... apparantly, i wont be able to see my laptop till early Feb. >_>
and my desktop is like %#$%@$^@3 slow. T_T
so im just gonna watch my BELOVED teebee for few more wks? wtfuck. -.-
the guy said that maybe the motherboard or harddisk got corrupted/virus-ed.
whatever luh. i dont understand LOL.
so its like $85.60 basic service fee (exclusive of the new motherboard/harddisk/whatever that needs to be replaced)
if i dont wna repair it after they tell me what i needed to change,
i gotta pay $48.50 for safe keeping it there for like 3 days =_=
rawrrrrrrrrr.
and now, im forced to use the school com and watch my korean hana yori dangooooooooo
D: D: D:
and no audi for weeeeeeks.
when there's the fucking sale on 22/1 =_=
AND MY GINGER IS GONNA DIE WITHOUT ME T_T

anyway, im not gonna be xin ruan anymore.
tho i still chat with him every night -.-
rawr. gimme timeeeeee okay? LOL.
but yea, im not interested anymore..... i suppose ._.
yepyep, jyjy to myself. ^^

i feel like a cave man now.
without modern technology like computerrrrrrr.
T_T
this sucks. rawr.
and this has to happen over the cny period when i'll be boooored to tears when the aunties and uncles talk talk talk.
but heng i working.
LOL.
i have CCA and some GP stuff on 28/1.
-.-
which means, im gonna go "poof" on that day.
LOL.
okay, enough of me ranting.
i need to watch my dramaa. ;D

i thought i was ready,
to be brave once again and face up to the cruel reality.
i was just going to be cold and not give in.
but when i hear your voice,
i just cant do it.
you asked me not to cry,
but do you know how it feels hearing you say that?
it just feels like a knife stabbing a thousand times.
yet whats worse is that all the thoughts rushed up to my mind at that time.
somewhere deep,
im still missing you.
yet again,
something inside me is wanting to forget.
im just so useless.

sorry.

so, everything ended for him.
and everything's gonna go haywire again.
i dont know what i should do.
srsly.
tell me what you want from me, please.

for some reasons, i was thinking about him today again.
im afraid i'll get soft-hearted.
im really afraid.
and i know he's not worth it.
but..... wtf?
=__________________= im confused.

please, stop affecting me anymore.

DAMN.
CANT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?
im alr doing my part by ignoring everything.
yet you just pop out of nowhere and spoil my mood and everything.
accusing me of things that i didnt do.
i've never been accused for the whole of my 18 yrs.
who the fuck you think you are?
jie said you're blind, seriously, you are.
whatever, just take it that i went around spreading THINGS about her.
for fuck's sake,
do you think i'll be srsly interested in those kinda bitchy stuff?
that do-it-out-of-jealousy-stuff.
>_>

please, if you dont trust what i say.
just take it that i'm the one doing it.
theres no point in ASKING me if i did it.
yea sure, you were just ASKING about it.
im sorry i cant ignore what you're accusing me about.
i hate that kinda feeling that im trying to escape if i just leave it as it is without explanations.
so just get out of my life,
and go live happily-ever-after.
stop bothering me about such childish stuff.
use yr brain and think it through, at least, before ASKING me about it.
im sick of explaining.

JUST FUCK OFF AND STAY OUT.

1.Who's the person that tagged you?
Yolanda and Cas >_>

2.Relationship between you and her?
Wives. (note: it ends with s, yces, im two-timing. ^^)

3.Three impressions of her?
Yolanda: MY BELOVED. ;3
Cas: WEIRDO. LOOOOOL.
oh, x3 for both comments LOL.

4.If she becomes your enemy, you will?
go to Cas's corner and kick her ass and snatch away her spot. LOOOL.
then i'll draw squares :3

5.What will you say to the person you like very much?
you suck. then give them a kiss. LOL.

6.Characteristics I lyk abt myself?
i like myself for hating myself. o_O

7.Characteristics I hate abt myself?
i hate myself for liking the hateful me.
LOL. wtf i talking ._.

8.For the person whom you hate, you say?
i love you. so fuck off and go emo in one corner.

9.What do people feel abt you?
loved by me. LOL.
ask them luh. ask me for whaaaat >_>

10.your crush?
which idiot will be so dumb to write that down.
i crush you like crush paper then u know. >_>

11.Pass this to 10 people
1. yolanda LOL.
2. casandra >_>
3. michelle
4. sihwee
5. junhao (no blog also can luh hur. LOL)
6. lynette
7. ruiting
8. ee teng
9. jasmine
10. singyee jie

12.If 5&7 were together?
WTF? LOL ;O

13.Who does 5 like?
;O me. LOOOL ;3 -shy-

14.What does 9 like?
baking o_o

15. Say something about 8?
aliennnnn~~~

16. Who is 2?
can't you read. it says "Casandra". LOL.
an idiot tho. LOL

17.Talk abt 3.
man u suck. ;D

18.Who is 10's best fren?
LOL. IDK. O.O
have me jiu enough le LOOOOOOL.

19.Who is sexiest among all?
no one. i'm the sexiest.

20.What colour does 4 like?
LOL IDK. brown? HER BAG ALL BROWN.

21.Is 4 single?
i think so O.o

22.Your relationship with 1?
my wife. <3

23.Are 5&6 best frens?
uh no. LOL. lynette hates junhao for snatching me away. LOL

24.9's surname?
oh~

25.7's nickname?
ruiting lor. LOL

26.Say something to 8.
dont miss me too much girl ;3

27.say something to help 9.
lets meet tgt everyday. LOL

28.Who does 1 admire?
her beloved. which is me. and not that 1-day-older guy D:

29.Where does 1 live?
yr house. >_>
DUH. HER HOUSE LUH.
oh i know!
25/35/45 joo chiat avenue. I FORGOT LOL.

30.10 of them know who you like?
IDK. LOL. i dont even know the answer myself. >_>

31.Say something to 6 when you see her.
lyneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeete. lol

32.10's spouse?
;O WSP. LOOL.
my jie fu :3

school was uh entertaining? LOL.
did some activities luh. not bad. hurhur.
tmr's career guidance talk. woooooooooomg.
=_________=
shyt.

gonna start on dramas/animes again. LOL.
was busy with other things during the past few wks -.-
sian, thought of him again.
im super useless sia.
but nvm, time is gonna heal all wounds.
>_>

I WNA WATCH SKIP BEAT.
=[

oh gawd, fuck all this shit.
got accused for something which i didnt do right after i woke up this morning
by him. (yes, again.)
wtf?
such a NICE way to start off my day hur.
i suppose she said something to him.
whatever. i dont care anymore.
im sick and tired of all this.
take it or leave it.
its up to you to believe if I'VE DONE whatever you think i did.

went back CCHMS just now to see yol and sihwee.
=X
and i fell down foyer stairs when i was about to call daddy. -.-
(think it's sprained too. rawr.)
daddy is suayyyyyy D:
then after that yol went for their class outing and i went home
so tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.
woke up at 6am today. =[

gonna go for school again and.....
MOTIVATIONAL TALKS.
wtf.
belief in yrself, have a visioooooon.
crap stuff. lol.

gonna have roller blading session on friday. wtf?
LOL. -.-
then lessons from 19jan-30jan.
-.-
bo wei gong sia.
siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

=[
school sucks.
life sucks.
audi sucks more.

school tmr.
WTFUCKOMGBBQSAUCE.
=________________________________=.
school sucks. like seriously.
=[

happy, or sad. idk.
im just going on with the flow right now, seriously.
my heart isnt feeling anything but ups and downs.
gotta pick myself up!

我还想他 by JJ 林俊杰

泪水将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉 这段感情

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这 一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

apparantly i did something foolish.
told him lots of hurting words in the morning in reply of what he msged me ytd nite -.-
never thought he'd see that mega so i was abit shocked when he said goodluck to me so i nvr reply.
._.
whatever. its good that he hates me (apparantly he's not -.-)
this way he can go be lovey dovey with her
and i can go on. hopefully.

"恨总比爱容易放下"
hmm, wonder how true is that.
i think shud be "恨总让爱容易放下"
lul.
he wont have to worry about me (i wonder if he even will >_>)
and can concentrate on her.
i know its hard to forget one that you truely love,
so i decided to give up.
it sorta felt like im being the third party, like wtf.
and it sucks hardcore.
fuck all this shit.
im gonna move on and stop thinking about hiiiiiimmmmmm.
i have to. D:

tq jia jun for being there for me ytd ;D
srsly, i didnt think about anything but banglahs and indians. LOL.
you got my mind off those kinda stupid stuff for quite some time. ^^
until it all started again. -.-
yr fault. rawr. :P
k, just joking lol.
having mood swings luuuuuh. D:

AND NOW, IM IN PAIN.
stomach cramps >_>
wtf. wtf. wtf.
thats why i came home from my auntie's house.
D:

gonna audi now.
jie's alone in audi LOL.
thanks guys.
i love my friends. <3

why isnt things going back to normal this time round?
i thought it'll be okay once i wake up just like the previous times..
i miss you.
i really miss you.
i want you back in my life.
those morning calls, late night chats,
even those things we did tgt.
everyone around me says that you're a bastard.
i hate myself. really.
why cant i just stop thinking about it but keep crying
whats the use of crying? huh?

you said you're gonna prove to me your love the first time.
i've seen it.
and you gave me the courage to trust again.
im sorry i told you that we should just forget it since you're worrying about her stuff.
i didnt treasure that chance.
and im regretting alot.

why are you going back to her
even though you know shes just playing a fool with you?
yesterday night was hell for you and i know it.
i really dont want you to be all fucked up and be in the middle.
thats why i said that im okay if you dont mind getting hurt by her.
i thought lieing to myself and you would be best for us.
i didnt know it would hurt this much this time round.
and i dont know why is everything happening like this.
i am missing you so much right now.
and i just realised how much you've taken up my life within such a short period of time.
i let you in my heart and its being torn apart every second now.

jie told me that i should just blame that the timing wasnt right.
our love hasnt stablized when everything happened.
and its true to a point.

i dont care about everything now.
i dont care if you're using me.
i dont care if you're just lying to me and fucking around with me.
i dont mind waiting till you get all hurt and your heart dies because of her.
i want to share everything with you.
i want to be with you, cry with you, suffer with you.

sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.

im really grateful to cas and jie for yesterday.
if they're werent there,
i would have just gone crazy.
just like now.
i know you guys care for me,
but i cant do anything to help myself.
it really hurts.

i love you i love you i love you.
i know you wont be able to read this stuff that i want to tell you,
but dont have the courage to.
i'll always be waiting.

alright, gonna change my ign to Marlboro-Ice
xD
wedding todayyyyyyyyyyyyy too.
(around midnight? i think. lol)
^^

went kbox with lynette they all.
LYNETTES MOTHER QIA WOR. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL
KBOX LEI. WOMG.
SO EX =_=
you qian ren jiu shi you qian ren D:
sang till 5 nia then went to look for deardear =S

sat mrt to bukit batok then we're supposed to take bus to cathay o_o
LOL.
WAHPIANG.
so fucking long. -.-
but okay luh, at tiong bahru there got this couple come up.
then THE GIRL VEH FIERCE.
at first they talk talk nia.. then suddenly,
the girl was like #$%#$^$%^$ @the guy O_O
then everybody STARE at them.
then the girl cryyyyyy. D:
pity the girl, but i think the guy more kelian.
=_=

met darling at bb mrt control station.
=D
sat bus to dhoby ghaut and watched bedtime stories.
BUGSY IS CUTE ;3333333333333333333333
and deardear's eyes look like bugsy.
LOL. so big >_>
can pajia0 somemore.
laugh until i want die. =X

after that walkkkkkkkkked from
cathay>esplanade>singapore flyer>bugis>lavender
WHOA. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE WALK SO FAR.
LOL.
i love darling ;3

I TELL U.
ESPLANADE ROOF TOP IS @#$@#%
TMD DE SO FUCKING NICE.
LOL.


after that ton at lavender de lan.
cause bugis de full -.-
RAWR.
and ta-da! i'm back home now. at 9 plus.
O.o
gonna meet darling and yol and sihwee at parkway later ba.
maybe gonna go east coast de lan? LOL.
wahlao, veh no life.
LOL.
and im meeting yol at 3 plus.
PLEASE DONT TELL ME IM GONNA TON FROM 3pm-6am
=____________=

took a few pictures. LOL.
really is a few nia. -.-
cause.............. my phone sucks >_>





anddddddddddddddd
singapore flyer.
;D
i just looooooooooooove this place now. ;33



darling de chinese is tok-gong. -.-
i bwg. LOL
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
im uber uber uber uber uber happy.
;3

05.01.09
<3333

I WANTED 09.01.09.
BUT ITS DUMB. LOL
STILL HAVE TO WAIT.
D;
nvm. i love darling ;3

i ish sick. D;
-coughs coughs and more coughs-
-.-
tmr is a happy day.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
;33

okay im mad i think.
there's one thing that i want to do by 2009:
1) climb into cchms with sihwee and yol and ton audi there.
LOL.

D: i think it'll be funnnnnnnnn. uber fun. D:

2nd/3rd day of the year.
mixed feelings.
>_>

ate too much barbeque stuff for the past few days i guess.
im gna be sick soon ._.
i almost sneeze out my nose and lungs today D:

fahrenheit's album is WHOA.
almost like all 10 songs are nice.
^^

sleep. nights.
gonna give him a morning call tmr. ;3

chalets countdowns sleepless nights
omg. im dying. D:
went for cldds chalet. veh fun ;D
mmhmmm,
after that came home half dead =.=
den talk to yol and decided to go her house countdown
LOL.
yep, so i went.
then halfway mich shulin and cas come and stalk us.
=[
supposed to watch twilight tgt but ended up watching dead silence.
i think the movie still okay,
actually not veh scary (thanks to michelle) LOL.
and yay, all 5 of us spent the night tgt on the bed.
;O FIVESOME LOL.
michelle just came yol's house to sleep i tell u >_>
like pig lidat. keep kicking yol's butt rofl.
tired out but heyyy, its funnnnn XD
andddd
i gave my another first to yolanda teo.
LOL
first time stay over lidat with alot friends on the beds. LOOOLL.
okay veh fun. i lazy to blog about details and
im gonna go sleep now.
three nights without sleep. OMFG.
nights ppl. ;3