yep. just came back from school.
Just realised that no matter how hard i try to smile
i just cant smile from deep within.
there's ALWAYS something there preventing me from wanting to smile.
Wow it took me months the other time to really give it up.
I wonder how long would it take this time round.
Just can't comprehend and i have no ways to get my answers. Haha?

So.. i'm lost?
Guess so.
a new habit for me to have something to wait for.
a simple message would be enough,
even if the message have just one or two words.
Habits are hard to change,
which makes it soo fucking hard to stop thinking about it =_=
Gosh, can someone just knock me out.

Whenever i'm occupied with friends or chats on phone,
i'm just alright.
Whenever i'm alone,
i'll start thinking about it again. >.>
@$(*&^%$ew#@!##%^&%
URGH.

Had an unknown message yesterday night after i slept,
actually it was from Zen. >.>
Didn't know it was Zen at first and when he said that his name had three letters,
i stared at my phone for a moment.
Somewhere, i was hoping that it was him,
even tho it doesn't even sound like him.
Just how silly can i get?

I wonder if he even thought of me whenever he have free time or before he sleeps.
Hurhur.

Girl, just forget EVERYTHING.
isn't it obvious enough?
Rejected calls from zw today.
i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry.
But i really don't want to talk about anything related to him at that moment.
somehow, he found out that i had a new blog.
and yea, about him.
Sighs.

Thanks Joel.
sounds weird saying this but yea..
you made me laugh. lol
I can't say my thanks to you over the phone,
i'll sound stupid. -.-

Okay, i'm having mood swings right now,
that's why everything is happening the way it is, right?
-.-
Whatever. Just shut the fuck up wanchin.