Its funny how things turn out in life -laughs?-
Someone whom i thought i forgot about, who have disappeared for weeks or even months,
appeared out of nowhere could even tell that i'm feeling down and cheer me up.
Someone whom i care about right now, is ignoring everything, which makes me feel so silly just because i was worried sick that something had happened to him.
In the end, it was just because that someone probably didn't want to face it? or even me?
Haha, i laughed.

Paranoid? Perhaps. It just happened for such a fucking short period of time.
I've always thought being truthful was the most important matter.
Even if things just don't go right at any point in time,
isn't saying out what's wrong the correct thing to do?
Maintaining silence isn't gonna help.
What's worse are the days of absolute separation.
Maybe i won't even get an answer? Let's just pray and hope..
what else could have been done huh?

Lack of communication; a subject totally worth to explore into.
at least, I've tried.
Perhaps it's karma that i'm going through all these?
Well, i've ignored zw calls..
but after that, AT LEAST i tried to ask what's needed.
He replied. Just wanted to ask me how i was.
Should i be glad? I wonder.

I could have taken another choice and chose to ignore completely,
afterall we promised to not have anymore contact with each other?
Stupidity perhaps.
But it was all thanks to stupidity that let me know what he's thinking about,
or rather, clear his doubts and get things back to the track.

Why in the fuck did i do that? No reasons.
Just because i know the feeling of being casted away at a side,
and being worried if that someone is safe and sound, when her herself knows that its being silly to think about such stuff but just can't stop herself from thinking about it.
And last but not least, to not even get a chance to clear up EVERYTHING.

Oh wow, and now she sounds pathetic just by looking back at what she've been doing.
It's funny too, how things that are almost the same are happening so coincidentally.
She even knows that everything would probably take a fucking long time to reach the other side.
What about all those promises huh?
She's desperate to keep her promise of being understanding.
but He just don't give a chance for this to happen.
Whatever.

Just hope things get right. Someday.