WOOOO. my blog's dead again. hurhur.
been busy these few weeks. =[
and no time for dbsk and junsuuuu D:
all thanks to xinying again haha.
got me addicted to dong bang with that heung heung vid,
then now restaurant city. LOL.

ANYWAY, THOSE who even happen to read this post :O,
and somehow plays restaurant city,
ADD ME K! I WANT FREE INGREDIENTS :D

Syf is on 6 may, which is like 6 more days?
omgomgomg.
but i think we're making goooood progress.
so now our percentage of the medals are as follows:
10+% bronze, 50% silver, 40% gold.
XD
wheeeee, i really think we maybe... just MAYBE, clinch a gold or something =D
whatever, we've worked hard.
thats enough. haha.

hmmm, just finished coffee prince for the 3rd time ever since it showed on air?
lala. i'm still in the kpop kraze mood.
and now im seriously thinking of taking both jap and korean in uni o.0

mmhm, okay thats enough crap for today.
i need to go back to my restaurant city. lol.
ADD ME ON FACEBOOK IF YOU PLAY RESTAURANT CITY.
wannchinn@hotmail.com

Na WANLING! LOL.
here's the uber cool picture of jaejoong made up of yunho's picture ;O

busy busy busy D:
cca, schoolwork, school stuff blah blah blah
=[
BUT I STILL HAVE TIME FOR DBSK =D
lol.
xiah junsu is thy love~ XD

abt the answer that you want,
i think im not ready yet?
=X
i just want to concentrate on my studies now,
and leave eveything aside first.
at least, after i finish my A's or something.
i know you're always there for me,
and i really appreciate it.
you're always there whenever i'm down and all emo all those.
you have your studies too,
so let's work hard together first okay?

uhm, idk if i should say this but yea,
still lots of thanks for those little tiny weeny things that you did.
=D

AHEM YAY!
orientation camp's over! =[
which means lessons are gonna start and all those D:
and i love my class :D
altho sometimes i get the feeling of wanting to dig a hole in the ground cause too enthu. LOL.
hmms, our class is reeeeeaaally hyper
which is nice? haha. i guess the OGLs and councillors will miss our class ;O
heard that one OGL cried because camp2 students were like =_______= boring. =X

shall blog about the camp today ;D
since i have co practice tmr and cip @bedok cc on sunday >_>

Day One:
ummm, my mum thought i had no school and sooo... i was late -.-
and then i was stuck at security post and the guard call me to call a tchr or the OM to let me go in ._.
the OM came and was like asking me why late,
then i was like, "Errr.. my mother thought i no sch so nvr wake me."
then he went blah blah blah and scolded me -.-
after he call me go off then the security guard was like telling me,
"Hey girl, dont take it to heart uh. He today abit bad mood."
-.-

amazing race and all those station games during the day.
WOO. hawk rocks =DDDD
partly i think because our class is in hawk. LOL.
had night walk too.
but the night walk was as expected.. boring. -.-
we were like split into 5/6 person one grp,
but every station we went, we had to like waiiiiiiiiittt.
._.
hmm after the nightwalk, the councillors were telling us that SOMETHING did happen during the nightwalk.
said that some grps encountered THOSE stuff.
cause we were suppose to like say "Bread" when we see other people walking around and if the person is one of TPJCians who are having camp, they will go "Butter".
so apparantly, some groups met those "people" that wouldn't and don't know how to respond. ;o
slept after the nightwalk and it was.... cramped. D:

Day Two:
Okay, so we have this morning exercise thing in the morning.
Did some warm ups and we were supposed to run round the track 3 laps while singing school song.
okay so we ran.
and everyone in Hawk was SINGING the school song LOUD and CLEAR.
but after the first lap and we stop to rest,
Steffi, whom is from Seagull, and apparantly shes the most notorious girl in the school >_>
said that "Okay, you guys did well but Hawk didn't sing."
Fuck you.
go dig your ears or something,
EVERYONE heard us singing.
We know that you're bias against Hawk-ers,
but isn't it abit TOO obvious.
okay, so all of us in Hawk were like "WTF?!" after we heard that.
i was quite mad, so i think i shouted quite loudly. ;O
LOL.
but anyway,
its sooo obvious the mood changed.
everyone in hawk went silent.
cause before that we were quite hyper and cheering all those.
then suddenly,
-----silence------
and everyone's faces were like.. -BLACK-
i think the OGLs also abit dunno what to do and tried to calm us down. >_>
and so after everyone was like shouting at her,
she went, "Oh SORRY that i said those words. blah blah crapshyt."
that was SOOOOOOO SINCERE of her.
even a dog can be more sincere than her.
hur.
so after that i was like freaking pekchek,
and for the first time in my whole TPJC life,
i ran three rounds round the track while screaming the school song and never stop.
so i guess,
anger can be turned into motivation?
LOL.
whatever, i dont really hate Seagull people,
but for goodness sake, get a better person to lead.

enough of that woman. >_>
so we had Orientation night for the second night.
OH YA,
i went home in the day halfway after lunch lol.
cause my cramps were like WOMGWTFBBQSAUCELKSDJW pain. T_T
this is my first time having mensus during camp and so pain ._.
so i went home and watched hana yori dango korean version LOL
then went back to camp around 8 plus.
and when i reach there, our skit which Hawk-ers are supposed to put up ended -.-
D:
okay, and then i think Phoenix performance had "NBCB" ;O
and Mr. Bala went up and reprimanded them about that.
that guy didnt do it purposely and it was on impulse i think,
but anyway, he also cry until veh jialat. =X
cause i think when everyone heard that everyone went O_O.
lol.

that rock band performance was =___________=.
this yr we couldn't do anything but standing there and cheer.
wtf? lol so boring. -.-
and they only sing two song jiu finish liao. >_>
srsly, i prefered last yr's orientation night.
WE WENT WILD CAN?
lol, maybe because i'm from Hera then Hera people went crazy that night.
WOOO ;3

Day Three:
Mhm, nothing much. haha
break camp le.
then went for ge yao after that.
haha.
and apparantly Wayne and some Poly guy who got into the Campus Superstar thing in the top few rounds or whatever volunteered to teach us or something ;O
they're students of Music Story luh.
didn't know that Wayne was the guy that sang with Xu Tao during the CCA Orientation thing until Yanfen and Ruiting told me o.O
then i was like.... WHOOOOOOA.
he and xu tao that day sing was like zao ying until siao can LOL
SOOOO BIG DIFFERENCE.
he sing okay luh, but i think the poly guy sing better.
and he's so much cuter than him. LOL.

got the namelist from xinwei and im gonna psycho J1s to join geyao tmr ba.
cause 90% were having camp 2 -.-
but anyway, im loving geyao more and more.

okay im hungry.
Orientation camp for this yr was okay tho,
although there were alot of unhappy events (eg: Steffi event) and the mass dance where two of our classmates pon-ded and almost got Hawk into trouble cause minus 200 points ;O
but anyway, my classs is really enthu and i like it ;D
woooo. go 09A06 =D

sorry junhao,
im really sorry.
i didnt mean to vent anger on you ytd.
dont angry le k?
T_T
dont dao my msgs leiiii D:
and thanks for ytd,
it was reaaally sweet. =D
SORRY SORRY =[

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aye aye aye..
busy with vday/orientation stuff these few days =X
having co orientation tmr after sch.
so... yep im left with only one day to buy the gifts :OOO
im so dead. lol
was expecting alot or at least quite a number of juniors for this year..
but in the end, only like one can make it -.-
(excluding the two appeal guys)
rawwwr.
D:
okay, so tennis have like 100+ who signed up, but they're only choosing 20.
so 80+ ppl got rejected :O
guitar have 100+
band have 50/60+
choir have 30+
co have 30+
wow.
._.
the two performing arts cca that is in need of the most people ended up with the least people signing up.
-.-
haiii D:

srsly, im sorta worried for this yr syf.
i think quite a number of ppl still have the mindset of like,
"oh~ its only feb. still early luh."
>_>
hellooooo.
feb, mar, apr, may.
theres like only 10 weeks before the actual thing.
;O
each week have like 2 or 3 practices?
PLUS,
only like 1/5 of the people are MAYBE practicing by themselves at home or whatsoever.
oh yay, and we MUST get GOLD.
given the fact that we have like 7 instructors teaching us
lots of $$ spent by the sch.
and most importantly,
our dear ms helen choo is expecting BETTER results since we dont have any instructors for the past two years and we got silver.
how nice.

i just dont get why some are just so not anxious.
abit frustating ._.
perhaps its because that they've never experience something before,
so i dont really blame them.
but its just that i cant stand people complaining that the practices are long and tiring blah blah blah and that studies are SOOOOO fucking important that your MIGHTY brain can only STUDY and doing something else will rot your brains out or something.
Please luh, other ccas are having like 3 or 4 practices a week ALREADY.
and our practices are only gonna increase in a month or so.
if you dont want to practise until SO LATE or LONG HOURS,
then shouldn't you START TRYING to improve your own skills.
its for your own good in the end, like seriously.
the teachers arent gonna be the ones on stage,
its you.
when you make a mistake on stage,
you know it yourself and your confidence WILL be affected somehow,
and you'll start making even MORE mistakes.
everyone will be looking at you.
you reap what you sow, isnt it?
i sound like some freak. lawl.

but somehow,
i sincerely believe that EVEN those with background or whatsoever NEED practices.
perhaps with the background,
it may benefit one when they are learning,
so that it'll be easier and they can catch things faster.
but without constant practice,
whats the fucking point even if you know the stuff.
when you go up the stage, almost like 40% of the usual stuff you've practiced is confirmed gone due to stage fright or unfamiliar-ness with the environment.

when you know that you dont have any music background or whatsoever,
isnt it like all the more you SHOULD practise?
if you have what it takes with lesser practices,
and be at least 90% sure of what is happening throughout everything,
you'll be relieved yourself and not add MORE problems in the already-so-many-problems-situation.
einstein didnt complain about trying over and over again,
so why should someone who is having not-so-good qualities as compared to him complain about trying again and again?
try asking yourself if you even have the right to complain when you yourself is part of the problem and that you're not doing anything to solve it.

im venting alot today. lol
its just that some times i see some particular people that are oh-so-concerned about their own study stuff and keep nagging without even thinking that most of us are ALSO having the same worries and problems about studies and hw blah blah blah.
you do your stuff right and you have the right to nag.
isnt it?
its like abit selfish when you're only thinking about yourself,
and not trying to make things better without putting in more effort.
and at the end of the day,
you'll be cursing at the pathetic outcome
or whats worse is that both sides dont work out well.
so that one stone injured two birds instead of killing them and accomplishing the task. hur.
whatever. i think some things ive said dont make any sense lol.

hmm, i need to brush up on my skills too.
LOL.
-.-
D: i miss my old bass in CCHMS.
the sound of this bass sucks -.-
its like all kept inside. O.o sounds weird LOL.
whatever, more practices YAY? D;
im tiredddd.

OH YA,
and watched this jap show called メイちゃんの執事 aka Mei-chan no Shitsuji aka 我的帅管家.
ITS SO FREAKING NICE.
LOL.
the show is about this school for the uber rich daughters in those families,
and the school fee is about 1billion yen everyday. wtf? LOL.
plus they need to have this male housekeeper to serve them wherever and whenever in school.
during lesson, the teacher will be like "please turn to page 57"
and the male housekeeper are the ones that is flipping the textbooks whereas the girls just sit in their comfy sofa. LOL. WTH?


OMG.he's cuuuuuuuute. ;3


oh here's the male lead of this story.
uhhhhh, okay luh. lol not as cute as the one above, Takeru Sato.
=D
he's the nan-xue-zhang in hanazakari no kimitachi e (jap version)
._.
LALALA~
okay im off to bed. LOL.
im sleeeeeeeeepy.
D:

okay. my blog's dying soon D;
gonna join my new class for the year starting from monday.
hmms, im quite excited actually.
and whooot, jasmine and xinying is in the same class as me.
our class combi is weird lol.
half of them are from theatre studies and drama aka tsd,
and the rest are taking cll/mll all those.
as expected, im the only one thats not taking econs at all. =D
i think im the only one in this school that doesnt take econs in arts class.
;O
so my new subject combination is confirmed? =D
H2 Chinese Language and Literature
H2 China Studies in English
H2 Mathematics
H1 General Studies in Chinese
so in short im taking, MCLLCSEGSC.
whoaaaaa.
ppl have like PCME. 4 letter nia.
i have 10 letters ;O
but anyway, i'm quite glad that im having this combi.
srsly, i think its useless for me to take econs anywayyy.
since im planning to go either to the faculty of arts and social science and take up jap as a minor/major OR the chinese department OR
NTU's faculty of communication and information which is like broadcasting and all those..
whats the use of econs in these you tell me -.-

my new class of the year, 09A06. ^^

AND THANKFULLY, Joshua's in 09A07.
but i have to see him everyday during morning assembly tho.
cause he's just nxt door. -.-
hms, looks like our class have like a few guys only also. haha
typical arts class ;X

anyway, my timetable for nxt week rocks.
Monday
8am-9am: P.E
9am-1pm:Break. ;OO 4hrs.
1pm-2pm: GSC then end of sch for the day -.-

Tuesday
9am-10am: CME -.-
11am-12nn: CSE and end of sch ._.

Wednesday
this day rocks. no lessons in the morning and im suppose to wait 4 hrs for my only lesson for the day.
12nn-1pm: CLL

Thursday
10am-11am: Maths
11am-2pm: Break. 4 hrs agn ;OO
2pm-3pm: CSE

Friday
8am-9am: Maths
9am-10am: GP
and yay, i have to wait 2 hrs more for the gate to open and
im done for this week.

i think im bringing my laptop to sch or something,
at least i can play audition or watch some drama during my 4hrs of breaks for the three days -.-
okay, im done ranting.
hurhur. ;D

i still dont get why the school slotted the 3D2N Orientation Camp the wk after.
its like.. so weird.
orientation camp after two weeks of school wth? lol
but somehow, i think the idea of CG camp is nice.
bonds us together at least =D
im actually okay with staying overnight in TPJC. ;O
quite alot ppl or to be exact, 99% dont want to stay overnight in sch.
LOL.
im weird.
but i like the feeling of staying late in sch and chatting with friends, wriggling in slping bags. LOL
._. sounds nice isnt it D:

hope my class will be full of enthu kias.
instead of those nerdy nerdy ones i've seen during the past few days -.-
alright, i'll stop here.
im excited for monday to come ;DD

YAY. im addicted to CabalChronicle le. (p.server for Cabal)
LOOOL.
=D
and i wannnna watch korean hana yori dango ;OO
i miss my hyun joong T_T
nights ppl.
OH YA.
HAPPY LUNAR CHINESE NEW YEAR <3
GET LOTSA LOTSA $$ WHEN MAHJONG-ING/DAIDEE-ING/BLACKJACK-ING/ETC-ING K
hahahahaha =DD

MUAHAHA.
my lappy is back.
:333
and i can watch my boys over flower again. ;DDDDD
KIM HYUN JOONG IS FREAKING SHUAI.
XD XD





CUTE RIGHT.
YOU TELL ME HE WHERE NOT CUTE.
;DDDDDDDDDDDDDD

i want to watch 大喜事 D:
the song is freaking nicee.
the plot like veh nice alsoooooooooooooo T_T

我們的愛 - 陳孟奇／姚惠敏
曲︰陳孟奇
詞︰吳慶康

女︰手交給你 一生交給你
在你眼裡 看見我自己
直到白頭 誰都不會離棄
永恆看得見 幸福在心底

男︰牽你手心 相伴一世紀
我會永遠 承諾保護你
直到我們 連皺紋都老去
也會讓你開心不哭泣

男︰我們的愛 沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛 今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

男︰我們的愛 心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰手交給你 一生交給你
在你眼裡 看見我自己
直到白頭 誰都不會離棄
也會讓你開心不哭泣

＊合︰我們的愛 沒有四季
每一分鐘都二十五度Ｃ
我們的愛 今生不渝
天涯海角也都會有痕跡

＃合︰我們的愛 心有默契
不管是誰會先停止呼吸
AVE MARIA

女︰讓我看仔細
男︰永遠不要忘記
合︰所有 好心情 壞脾氣
苦與樂 都珍惜

重唱 ＊,＃

合︰AVE MARIA

oh yay.
school's so busy and tiring. D:
this is gonna be my schedule for these few weeks.
Monday: CO practice starting soon till 06 May
Tuesday: Performance rehearsal from 5pm onwards
Wednesday: CO practice till 9pm
Thursday: Performance rehearsal from 5pm onwards
Friday: CO practice starting soon too.
im so.... dead? thats when school starts. >_>
and i just found out that school officially starts on 2 Feb.
-.-
i thought it was 14 Feb D:
oh ya, thats valentines day too ._.
whatever, im looking forward to the orientation camp for the J1s actually.
LOL.
cause apparantly its gonna be a overnight camp or something.
wheeeeeeeeeee :3
i love overnight camps.
especially in tpjc, cause its not scary at all
-.-

decided to drop my H2 Economics.
so my new subject combination would be:
H2 Mathematics
H2 Chinese Language and Literature
H2 China Studies in English
H1 General Studies in Chinese
hurhur. i dont even know if the school offer this.
D:
but i reallllllly dont feeel like taking up econs again.
since im gonna go into NTU's faculty of communication and information
or something like that >_> (ie. mass communication. but abit chimmer. lol.)
so lets hope that theres a combination like mine.
SO CHEEEEEEEEEEEEENA.
but whatever, i like em ._.

i miss my laptop.
=[

so... apparantly, i wont be able to see my laptop till early Feb. >_>
and my desktop is like %#$%@$^@3 slow. T_T
so im just gonna watch my BELOVED teebee for few more wks? wtfuck. -.-
the guy said that maybe the motherboard or harddisk got corrupted/virus-ed.
whatever luh. i dont understand LOL.
so its like $85.60 basic service fee (exclusive of the new motherboard/harddisk/whatever that needs to be replaced)
if i dont wna repair it after they tell me what i needed to change,
i gotta pay $48.50 for safe keeping it there for like 3 days =_=
rawrrrrrrrrr.
and now, im forced to use the school com and watch my korean hana yori dangooooooooo
D: D: D:
and no audi for weeeeeeks.
when there's the fucking sale on 22/1 =_=
AND MY GINGER IS GONNA DIE WITHOUT ME T_T

anyway, im not gonna be xin ruan anymore.
tho i still chat with him every night -.-
rawr. gimme timeeeeee okay? LOL.
but yea, im not interested anymore..... i suppose ._.
yepyep, jyjy to myself. ^^

i feel like a cave man now.
without modern technology like computerrrrrrr.
T_T
this sucks. rawr.
and this has to happen over the cny period when i'll be boooored to tears when the aunties and uncles talk talk talk.
but heng i working.
LOL.
i have CCA and some GP stuff on 28/1.
-.-
which means, im gonna go "poof" on that day.
LOL.
okay, enough of me ranting.
i need to watch my dramaa. ;D

i thought i was ready,
to be brave once again and face up to the cruel reality.
i was just going to be cold and not give in.
but when i hear your voice,
i just cant do it.
you asked me not to cry,
but do you know how it feels hearing you say that?
it just feels like a knife stabbing a thousand times.
yet whats worse is that all the thoughts rushed up to my mind at that time.
somewhere deep,
im still missing you.
yet again,
something inside me is wanting to forget.
im just so useless.

sorry.

so, everything ended for him.
and everything's gonna go haywire again.
i dont know what i should do.
srsly.
tell me what you want from me, please.

for some reasons, i was thinking about him today again.
im afraid i'll get soft-hearted.
im really afraid.
and i know he's not worth it.
but..... wtf?
=__________________= im confused.

please, stop affecting me anymore.

DAMN.
CANT YOU JUST LEAVE ME ALONE?
im alr doing my part by ignoring everything.
yet you just pop out of nowhere and spoil my mood and everything.
accusing me of things that i didnt do.
i've never been accused for the whole of my 18 yrs.
who the fuck you think you are?
jie said you're blind, seriously, you are.
whatever, just take it that i went around spreading THINGS about her.
for fuck's sake,
do you think i'll be srsly interested in those kinda bitchy stuff?
that do-it-out-of-jealousy-stuff.
>_>

please, if you dont trust what i say.
just take it that i'm the one doing it.
theres no point in ASKING me if i did it.
yea sure, you were just ASKING about it.
im sorry i cant ignore what you're accusing me about.
i hate that kinda feeling that im trying to escape if i just leave it as it is without explanations.
so just get out of my life,
and go live happily-ever-after.
stop bothering me about such childish stuff.
use yr brain and think it through, at least, before ASKING me about it.
im sick of explaining.

JUST FUCK OFF AND STAY OUT.

1.Who's the person that tagged you?
Yolanda and Cas >_>

2.Relationship between you and her?
Wives. (note: it ends with s, yces, im two-timing. ^^)

3.Three impressions of her?
Yolanda: MY BELOVED. ;3
Cas: WEIRDO. LOOOOOL.
oh, x3 for both comments LOL.

4.If she becomes your enemy, you will?
go to Cas's corner and kick her ass and snatch away her spot. LOOOL.
then i'll draw squares :3

5.What will you say to the person you like very much?
you suck. then give them a kiss. LOL.

6.Characteristics I lyk abt myself?
i like myself for hating myself. o_O

7.Characteristics I hate abt myself?
i hate myself for liking the hateful me.
LOL. wtf i talking ._.

8.For the person whom you hate, you say?
i love you. so fuck off and go emo in one corner.

9.What do people feel abt you?
loved by me. LOL.
ask them luh. ask me for whaaaat >_>

10.your crush?
which idiot will be so dumb to write that down.
i crush you like crush paper then u know. >_>

11.Pass this to 10 people
1. yolanda LOL.
2. casandra >_>
3. michelle
4. sihwee
5. junhao (no blog also can luh hur. LOL)
6. lynette
7. ruiting
8. ee teng
9. jasmine
10. singyee jie

12.If 5&7 were together?
WTF? LOL ;O

13.Who does 5 like?
;O me. LOOOL ;3 -shy-

14.What does 9 like?
baking o_o

15. Say something about 8?
aliennnnn~~~

16. Who is 2?
can't you read. it says "Casandra". LOL.
an idiot tho. LOL

17.Talk abt 3.
man u suck. ;D

18.Who is 10's best fren?
LOL. IDK. O.O
have me jiu enough le LOOOOOOL.

19.Who is sexiest among all?
no one. i'm the sexiest.

20.What colour does 4 like?
LOL IDK. brown? HER BAG ALL BROWN.

21.Is 4 single?
i think so O.o

22.Your relationship with 1?
my wife. <3

23.Are 5&6 best frens?
uh no. LOL. lynette hates junhao for snatching me away. LOL

24.9's surname?
oh~

25.7's nickname?
ruiting lor. LOL

26.Say something to 8.
dont miss me too much girl ;3

27.say something to help 9.
lets meet tgt everyday. LOL

28.Who does 1 admire?
her beloved. which is me. and not that 1-day-older guy D:

29.Where does 1 live?
yr house. >_>
DUH. HER HOUSE LUH.
oh i know!
25/35/45 joo chiat avenue. I FORGOT LOL.

30.10 of them know who you like?
IDK. LOL. i dont even know the answer myself. >_>

31.Say something to 6 when you see her.
lyneeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeete. lol

32.10's spouse?
;O WSP. LOOL.
my jie fu :3

school was uh entertaining? LOL.
did some activities luh. not bad. hurhur.
tmr's career guidance talk. woooooooooomg.
=_________=
shyt.

gonna start on dramas/animes again. LOL.
was busy with other things during the past few wks -.-
sian, thought of him again.
im super useless sia.
but nvm, time is gonna heal all wounds.
>_>

I WNA WATCH SKIP BEAT.
=[

oh gawd, fuck all this shit.
got accused for something which i didnt do right after i woke up this morning
by him. (yes, again.)
wtf?
such a NICE way to start off my day hur.
i suppose she said something to him.
whatever. i dont care anymore.
im sick and tired of all this.
take it or leave it.
its up to you to believe if I'VE DONE whatever you think i did.

went back CCHMS just now to see yol and sihwee.
=X
and i fell down foyer stairs when i was about to call daddy. -.-
(think it's sprained too. rawr.)
daddy is suayyyyyy D:
then after that yol went for their class outing and i went home
so tireeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeed.
woke up at 6am today. =[

gonna go for school again and.....
MOTIVATIONAL TALKS.
wtf.
belief in yrself, have a visioooooon.
crap stuff. lol.

gonna have roller blading session on friday. wtf?
LOL. -.-
then lessons from 19jan-30jan.
-.-
bo wei gong sia.
siannnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnnn.

=[
school sucks.
life sucks.
audi sucks more.

school tmr.
WTFUCKOMGBBQSAUCE.
=________________________________=.
school sucks. like seriously.
=[

happy, or sad. idk.
im just going on with the flow right now, seriously.
my heart isnt feeling anything but ups and downs.
gotta pick myself up!

我还想他 by JJ 林俊杰

泪水将我淹没 到底谁该难过
究竟是谁放掉 这段感情

我才终于明白 办不到的承诺
就成了枷锁
现实中幸福永远缺货

请告诉他 我不爱他
笑着难过 自我惩罚
想终止这 一切挣扎
横了心说真心谎话

别告诉他 我还想他
恨总比爱容易放下
当泪水堵住了胸口
就让沉默 代替所有回答

我不爱 我不痛 我不懂
我的心早已掏空
真心话言不由衷

apparantly i did something foolish.
told him lots of hurting words in the morning in reply of what he msged me ytd nite -.-
never thought he'd see that mega so i was abit shocked when he said goodluck to me so i nvr reply.
._.
whatever. its good that he hates me (apparantly he's not -.-)
this way he can go be lovey dovey with her
and i can go on. hopefully.

"恨总比爱容易放下"
hmm, wonder how true is that.
i think shud be "恨总让爱容易放下"
lul.
he wont have to worry about me (i wonder if he even will >_>)
and can concentrate on her.
i know its hard to forget one that you truely love,
so i decided to give up.
it sorta felt like im being the third party, like wtf.
and it sucks hardcore.
fuck all this shit.
im gonna move on and stop thinking about hiiiiiimmmmmm.
i have to. D:

tq jia jun for being there for me ytd ;D
srsly, i didnt think about anything but banglahs and indians. LOL.
you got my mind off those kinda stupid stuff for quite some time. ^^
until it all started again. -.-
yr fault. rawr. :P
k, just joking lol.
having mood swings luuuuuh. D:

AND NOW, IM IN PAIN.
stomach cramps >_>
wtf. wtf. wtf.
thats why i came home from my auntie's house.
D:

gonna audi now.
jie's alone in audi LOL.
thanks guys.
i love my friends. <3

why isnt things going back to normal this time round?
i thought it'll be okay once i wake up just like the previous times..
i miss you.
i really miss you.
i want you back in my life.
those morning calls, late night chats,
even those things we did tgt.
everyone around me says that you're a bastard.
i hate myself. really.
why cant i just stop thinking about it but keep crying
whats the use of crying? huh?

you said you're gonna prove to me your love the first time.
i've seen it.
and you gave me the courage to trust again.
im sorry i told you that we should just forget it since you're worrying about her stuff.
i didnt treasure that chance.
and im regretting alot.

why are you going back to her
even though you know shes just playing a fool with you?
yesterday night was hell for you and i know it.
i really dont want you to be all fucked up and be in the middle.
thats why i said that im okay if you dont mind getting hurt by her.
i thought lieing to myself and you would be best for us.
i didnt know it would hurt this much this time round.
and i dont know why is everything happening like this.
i am missing you so much right now.
and i just realised how much you've taken up my life within such a short period of time.
i let you in my heart and its being torn apart every second now.

jie told me that i should just blame that the timing wasnt right.
our love hasnt stablized when everything happened.
and its true to a point.

i dont care about everything now.
i dont care if you're using me.
i dont care if you're just lying to me and fucking around with me.
i dont mind waiting till you get all hurt and your heart dies because of her.
i want to share everything with you.
i want to be with you, cry with you, suffer with you.

sorry.
sorry.
sorry.
sorry.

im really grateful to cas and jie for yesterday.
if they're werent there,
i would have just gone crazy.
just like now.
i know you guys care for me,
but i cant do anything to help myself.
it really hurts.

i love you i love you i love you.
i know you wont be able to read this stuff that i want to tell you,
but dont have the courage to.
i'll always be waiting.

alright, gonna change my ign to Marlboro-Ice
xD
wedding todayyyyyyyyyyyyy too.
(around midnight? i think. lol)
^^

went kbox with lynette they all.
LYNETTES MOTHER QIA WOR. LOLLLLLLLLLLLLL
KBOX LEI. WOMG.
SO EX =_=
you qian ren jiu shi you qian ren D:
sang till 5 nia then went to look for deardear =S

sat mrt to bukit batok then we're supposed to take bus to cathay o_o
LOL.
WAHPIANG.
so fucking long. -.-
but okay luh, at tiong bahru there got this couple come up.
then THE GIRL VEH FIERCE.
at first they talk talk nia.. then suddenly,
the girl was like #$%#$^$%^$ @the guy O_O
then everybody STARE at them.
then the girl cryyyyyy. D:
pity the girl, but i think the guy more kelian.
=_=

met darling at bb mrt control station.
=D
sat bus to dhoby ghaut and watched bedtime stories.
BUGSY IS CUTE ;3333333333333333333333
and deardear's eyes look like bugsy.
LOL. so big >_>
can pajia0 somemore.
laugh until i want die. =X

after that walkkkkkkkkked from
cathay>esplanade>singapore flyer>bugis>lavender
WHOA. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE WALK SO FAR.
LOL.
i love darling ;3

I TELL U.
ESPLANADE ROOF TOP IS @#$@#%
TMD DE SO FUCKING NICE.
LOL.


after that ton at lavender de lan.
cause bugis de full -.-
RAWR.
and ta-da! i'm back home now. at 9 plus.
O.o
gonna meet darling and yol and sihwee at parkway later ba.
maybe gonna go east coast de lan? LOL.
wahlao, veh no life.
LOL.
and im meeting yol at 3 plus.
PLEASE DONT TELL ME IM GONNA TON FROM 3pm-6am
=____________=

took a few pictures. LOL.
really is a few nia. -.-
cause.............. my phone sucks >_>





anddddddddddddddd
singapore flyer.
;D
i just looooooooooooove this place now. ;33



darling de chinese is tok-gong. -.-
i bwg. LOL
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~
im uber uber uber uber uber happy.
;3

05.01.09
<3333

I WANTED 09.01.09.
BUT ITS DUMB. LOL
STILL HAVE TO WAIT.
D;
nvm. i love darling ;3

i ish sick. D;
-coughs coughs and more coughs-
-.-
tmr is a happy day.
WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE~
;33

okay im mad i think.
there's one thing that i want to do by 2009:
1) climb into cchms with sihwee and yol and ton audi there.
LOL.

D: i think it'll be funnnnnnnnn. uber fun. D:

2nd/3rd day of the year.
mixed feelings.
>_>

ate too much barbeque stuff for the past few days i guess.
im gna be sick soon ._.
i almost sneeze out my nose and lungs today D:

fahrenheit's album is WHOA.
almost like all 10 songs are nice.
^^

sleep. nights.
gonna give him a morning call tmr. ;3

chalets countdowns sleepless nights
omg. im dying. D:
went for cldds chalet. veh fun ;D
mmhmmm,
after that came home half dead =.=
den talk to yol and decided to go her house countdown
LOL.
yep, so i went.
then halfway mich shulin and cas come and stalk us.
=[
supposed to watch twilight tgt but ended up watching dead silence.
i think the movie still okay,
actually not veh scary (thanks to michelle) LOL.
and yay, all 5 of us spent the night tgt on the bed.
;O FIVESOME LOL.
michelle just came yol's house to sleep i tell u >_>
like pig lidat. keep kicking yol's butt rofl.
tired out but heyyy, its funnnnn XD
andddd
i gave my another first to yolanda teo.
LOL
first time stay over lidat with alot friends on the beds. LOOOLL.
okay veh fun. i lazy to blog about details and
im gonna go sleep now.
three nights without sleep. OMFG.
nights ppl. ;3

went klearcuts to cut my hair today with grace
I TELL YOU THERE CUT VEHHHHHHH GOOD. LOL
far east, 3rd storey i think.
and its damn cheap (cause student price mar)
20 bucks niaaaa. ;D
and got the people there damn funny and entertaining. LOL
shall upload the pics later on ba.
i didnt take a side view de D:
and ish lazy to take now. LOL

i went out with my contacts today.
muahahaha.
wahpiang, you know i start 10am try put in
and FINALLY AT 12NN I SUCCEEDED.
2 hours. wtf?
1st time maarrr cannot blame me. LOL
but i also think 2 hours abit long haha =X

walk walk in orchard
and we kept trying on clothes LOL
FAN ZHENG SHI MIAN FEI DE. LOL
okay i ish like my hair alot alot now ;33

took some neoprints at cine.
my scanner spoil D: cannot upload neoprints RAWR.
and grace computer spoil but her scanner working.
lmao =.=
nvm ba. i'll think of same ways eventually. LOL

gonna go for chalet tmr and staying till last day of 2008 <3
AND IM BRINGING MY LAPTOP THERE.
i cant live without my beloved lappy =[[[
okay thats all luh.
im lazy. hahaha. =D

I've gotten my contacts.
wheeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~ <3
BUT the fucking lens dont seem to go onto my pupil =.=
WHYYYY D;
i open my eyelid top and bottom le
den the opening just nice is my pupil
and when i try to blink a little the lens get stuck outside my eye
wtf. -.-
cant even fit inside
D:

RAWR. IM PEKCEK NOW.
=[
gonna meet grace tmr to cut her hair with her -.-
nothing much today.
still... i r sad =[

okay i swear im not gonna marry a small eye guy.
if not i think our children cannot wear contacts D:

aight, just reached home.
went to watch yes man with junhao.
ITS OKAY LUH.
i nvr laugh lei. why ah -.-
everybody laughing D:
i think im saddist. LOL.
cause last time watch ip man hitting scenes i laugh =_=
nvm. LOL. i ish unique. ;3

today veh lucky i think LOL
u know we bought tics that time,
the guy dunno what happen
count us 16 bucks nia.
then i was like eh? not 20 meh after that.
AND JUNHAO WENT BACK TO THAT GUY
TOLD HIM THAT HE COUNT LESS -.-
WTF. lol
4 bucks is not much luhh but 4 bucks D:
$$_$$
i sound evil sia. haha
nvr mind, being honest ish gooooood ;D
(cause also not my moneyyy lol)

AND OMG I TELL U.
MY ARCADE BASKETBALL IS ZAI.
HAHAHHAHAHA.
i won 2 sibei ah lian de girl luhhhh.
they every sentence is like WHOOOAAA.
lol. i think their ancestors and all generations de grand-grand-grand father mother all come out already. LOL.
and i think they're basketball players
MUAHAHAH
so yayyyyy, im freaking happy.
HAHA.
okay, i wannnna go sing k again.
RAWR.
gonna audi le. yolanda is cui-ing me D:

watched twilight @ e!hub today with eeteng and ruiting.
SO PATHETIC.
only left us 3 nia. D;
okay luh, movie not bad. haha
cause i nvr read the book (^^y)
OMG I THINK THAT ERIC IN THE MOVIE SRSLY LOOK LIKE WANG REN FU.
just that he speaks proper english LOL
hmm Justin Chon is his name.

vs

SIMILAR RIGHT. WOMG.
THROUGHOUT THE MOVIE IM LIKE STARING AT WANG REN FU
THAT SPEAKS ENGLISH. =__=
and and and he looks abit like Lee Junki also LOL

vs

YOU TELL ME THEY DONT LOOK ALIKE?!?!
RAWR. lol.

And here, he looks like qi yu wu (戚玉武)

vs

LOL. I THINK HIS FACE IS MULTI-PURPOSE DE.
LOOK LIKE SO MANY PPL SIA


but eh, he's still cute. LOLOLOL.
see see!!! -points above-
hahaha. ;3

okay, downloaded wang lee hom and luo zhi xiang album today.
saw this KenT guy. (new singer ba)
OMFG. I THINK HE NOT BAD LEI.
HAHA

he sing also not bad. abit like tank tho. hahaa



okay, i shall stop eating flower today.
;DDD
BUT I THINK KENT AND THAT JUSTIN CHON IS CUTE.
HAHA.

n_n ish Lv 14 and 16 % ;D
ZOMG.
IM DYING. LOL

gonna go catch twilight with eeteng they all.
womg.. $_$ again.
D;

MR. SANTA;
IF YOUR COMING FOR XMAS THIS YR AND WNA GIVE ME A PRESENT,
GIVE ME A MACHINE THAT PRINTS MONEY.
I'LL LOVE YOU FOREVER I PROMISE!! :333

gosh. =[
i need sleeeep or i'm gonna be late tmr. haha
nights peeps.
AND MERRY XMAS. O_O

MERRY XMAS EVERYONE! ;D
mmhm, just reached home =_=
IM TIRED. LOL.
met junhao and went marina square to watch movieeeeeee.
"The Day the Earth Stood Still."
sucked, i tell u >_>
okay i think the effects were like WHOOAA.
budden the storyline like no storyline =.=
i dont like the ending part.
it just like suddenly stop den tell you its the end of movie.
wtf? lol
and some idiot slept through the movie ._.
so its THAT boring. lol
yay! 10 bucks flewww~ D:
but heng not mine. LOOOOL.

finished around 10 plus ba.
den junhao's mother called him and ask him go back home -.-
to celebrate xmas tgt with his family blah blah >.>
and and and
THEY'RE EATING TURKEY IN THE MIDDLE OF THE NIGHT.
LOL.
okay so i shun bian also tag along lor. haha
free turkey anyways ;D

reached his house.
WLAO. LIKE NEW YEAR LIDAT.
have those uncles aunties everywhre
and they're playing mahjong wth -.-
i think best part was the countdown.
TMD HIS HOUSE CLOCK SLOW 10 MINUTES SIA
LOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL.
cause we were like gathered around the table before that den chit chat what.
then suddenly we heard like "MERRY XMAS!!" from the neighbourhood or smthing.
everyone were like "Whoa! So fast. also havent 12."
den his brother check his hp he said already 12.
=___=
den suddenly everybody so jing zhang. HAHAHA.
but it was uber fun tho. ;D
CAUSE I WON AT THE MAHJONG WHEN I DIDNT EVEN KNOW.
LOL.



heng junhao know how to count blah blah blah >.>
i think im suuuuper lucky.
beginners luck ;D

movie marathon after that.
watched Wall-E.
OMG. SO CUTE~~ ♥♥♥
then after that was..
Shutter.
WTF. LOL. HIS BROTHER IS MAD.
WHRE GOT PPL SUDDENLY CHANGE TYPE OF MOVIE DE.
heng i watch before so not that scary.
and junhao fall asleep again.
WLAO EH. he really is cannot watch movie de.
=__= waste money nia.
but hmm, i think i halfway through also slept.
cause i woke up a lil and its some xmas movie.
Haha. then i go back sleep again -.-

just woke up 8 plus den everyone was slping in the living room.
with the teevee on. LOL.
den his mother wake us up chase us home D:
then i rmbr that i forgot to tell my mother =.=
i just told her i going countdown nia and will take taxi home
._.
heng she go work le. T_T
she sure kill me de. 34 missed calls. =.=
okay, so his brother fetch me home.
WHEEEEEEE~
he drive damn scary
worse than my father.
the meter like nothing lidat.
100+ LEH. WTH.
okay luh, i think dun have 100 plus LOL
sg whre can run until 100 plus
>.>
but veh veh scary jiu dui le. =X

I LOVE MY DORAEMON PLUSHIEEEEEEEE =DDD
REALLY IS SOFT UNTIL LIKE WILL MELT.
<333 TQ JUNHAO =DD

and i think singtel is lagging.
CAUSE TONS OF MSGS ARE COMING IN. WTH. =_=
okay, i shall go brush my teeth etc.
and go sleep a while ba ;D
NIGHTS PEEPS.
AND MEEEERRRRYY XMAS!!